I began to feel like a clown juggling too many balls.
Each ball represented a problem I was keeping up in the air.
My arms were weary and I knew I couldn’t keep on much longer,
but I was not about to give up. My pride and ego wouldn’t let me.
Bosses, judges, co-workers, lawyers, car notes, bar tabs, loan sharks,
utility payments, landlords, wife or girlfriend, people I had double-crossed —
I looked to all these as the source of my problems, while overlooking the most basic problem:
my addiction and myself.
I’d known for a long time that I desperately wanted off this merry-go-round,
but I had no idea how to do it.
– Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 506
Thought to Ponder . . .
The solution is simple. The solution is spiritual.
H O W = Honesty, Open-mindedness, Willingness.